The J Times: Thank you, Sorry, I Love You!

Thank you WeiWei.

Thanks for your 8 lurves.

But I didn't HUAT today =/

and your tissue, it came at right time =)

Thank you JueLyn.

Thanks for the "you are your biggest obstacle, competitor and encourager".

I thought I've defeated my obstacle. Yes, for my own expectation, not hers.

Yet, I am still not the biggest winner.

Thank you WeeHan.

Thanks for your help, not one time, not two times, is a lot lot of helps.

at least I have you, my big fans of my story. yes I think she doesn't really like =/

SiewMei, for your smile, I smiled after I see your smiles.

ChiaYee, for your jumping Mario, and your "Bad Boy".

Ivan, for you putting the wire to the right hole.

Jacklyn, for your hugs, and your cute ponytail today.

MingChang, for your "I don't want to fly!" LOL but still I want to fly, I want to fly to Japan, Korea, Taiwan, US and more.

WaiHow, for your "sorry" messages, don't sad lah, I typed all my sadness into those messages already, you get it? haha

Everyone did pretty good today. at least for me, I think we are good. I thought we've made changes, put efforts, and this is our last speech already. yes, I don't mean that I don't have weaknesses, but I thought the good can outweigh those bad ones loh =/but people normally see weaknesses first.

I was damn sad loh. putting a high expectation, making me fall down so kolian like now. not purely being hatred, I thought I have really put efforts on it loh, but the result is just not so... I don't know why loh, I got one feeling: She doesn't like me, my speeches, my anything.

People are saying that failures are nothing, if we fail, we should stand up and try again, again and again. They said if there is determination, nothing is impossible. I shall say, it's not only about hardwork and efforts, sometimes we need "luck" to go near to the success. Luck, to let the whole world know you, to make her likes you, to make her remembers you, to make her gives you good marks. If not, it would be me, "ya kou chi huang lian, you ku shuo bu chu" =/

Sad loh, only get B+, then cried in front of big bunch of friends, I felt wtso ugly. Everytime also like that, I hope I wouldn't be so weak, wouldn't be so fragile, to cry so easily in front of people. I don't want to spoil their mood, they want to celebrate the happiness, I am so sorry, I share your happiness too.

I think my tears capacity is only 1ml cubes loh, it filled in 1 second everytime I feel wanted to cry. Then I cried like hell, then try not to let others see me but always failed =/ I hope I can get rid of this, so that I won't drop my tears so easily hmmmm I always thought I can cry so easily then I should go for "talent hunting" if they need crying actress or kalefe, i sure get golden horse award one loh, best actress somemore LOL then don't need to be a lousy public speaker here hahaha JooLi JooLi stop dreaming~

5 more days to go. I gotta study hard and smart lah.

I can foresee my coming holidays... =D

I love you babe, I want ring ring ice cream as reward, where to find one? XP wong chee hong